It's the Little Things

Recently I dug up some old photos because I wanted to find a specific picture of Gedalya at Adel's age.
I love looking at pictures of the boys at Adel's age.

What I don't love is constantly thinking, "Wow, that's not even on Adel's radar! Will she ever be able to do that?"
It's the little things that get to me sometimes.

I love watching Adi do silly things, like slap her knees with her hands, one by one. Or raise and lower her legs one by one while she is sitting.
What I don't love is constantly thinking, "Is that her own cuteness? Or is that something stemming from her disorder?" The last time I thought, "Oh, what a cute little quirk," it ended up being grounds for an EEG.

While on the topic of "the little things," it's very interesting to observe that Adel is roughly the size of seven-month old Zusha.

weight: 21.5 lbs 15th %ile
height: 32.5 in 75th %ile
head circumference: 44.5 cm 7th %ile

Okay, she is taller, but by weight and head size she is the same as Zusha was at seven months. She doesn't seem so small to me, but she didn't really gain any weight since she was ten months old. (That's eight months!)
But - it does make for a more pleasant babywearing experience. See, I am able to find the little positive things amongst the little *sigh* things. Such as...

...watching her march around in her new shichalach! When I stand her up and hold her hands, she makes really high and exaggerated steps, bringing her footsies down with a STOMP. Zusha says Adel is the cutest girl in the world because other girls walk the regular way, but Adel walks this way.

I used to love being able to toss Adel's clothes from the washing machine into the dryer without a second glance. I don't dry any clothes with stains; I pre-treat and rewash. But she wasn't self feeding, so no food stains. She wasn't crawling, so no dirty knees. She has chronic constipation, so no diaper blowouts. (Maybe five in her whole life...)
Now that she is crawling and sometimes self feeding, I love having to check her clothes. And if the knee scuffs don't come out, I love it even more!
It's the little things that make me smile.

And I must say, I love looking at pictures of Adel at Adel's age, too!